Aksionov had deep love for his wife. He wanted to petition to the Tsar for clemency. But his wife said that the petition already sent had been rejected. She asked, “Vanya dearest, tell your wife the truth; was it not you who did it?” It was too much to bear for Aksionov. He was devastated. He buried his face in his hands and sobbed. When he recalled what his wife had said, he was shocked. He said to himself, “It seems that only God can know the truth; it is to Him alone we must appeal, and from Him alone expect mercy.” He gave up all hope. He only prayed to God.